Thursday, July 8, 2010

work

my schedule for the next program is already been fixed since a couple few weeks ago but yesterday night i got a phone call about me being transfered to another one but then again, i got a text saying i will be staying at the first one. i'm guess after a few weeks the first program has starts, im gonna get the second one also if yes. all i can say is ALHAMDULILLAH! :)

world cup 2010


team germany was defeated by team spain on wednesday and i still feel a bit sad on their lost. they still have hope on getting the 3rd place title for the  next match against the uruguay's. best luck for germany!

twitter

twitter can be fun also a pain the ass

what is twitter anyways? for me its a place where we can type whats in our mind out and update about almost anything we like to.

why i unlocked my twitter. no personal reasons. I'm hiding no secrets in there and im not using it as a media for attacking others.  i must admit, i used to do that but not anymore cause i don't want to. i just simply press the button block if someone deliberately trying to sarcastically me and stuff

just be careful of what you type in there. some people are highly sensitive about things

example about ghost. i didn't know that my latest tweet about me seeing a ghost past by can be so disturbing. so disturbing they lost their concentration on what they were doing.

because i know i was wrong so i immediately apologize better yet, should i just stop twitting?

Monday, May 31, 2010

gifts

just bought a gift for my special someone .. his was a bit expensive but all i can say he deserves it for his sweetness and love :) hope he loves it when i give it to me
also bought some chocolates that's really rare to find in my country for my friends .. but most of all .. the prays they ask me to pray for em .. that is the priority of all gifts

reunion

just had an reunion with some of my high school friends and most of em was boys .. we had a great time chit chat about stuffs and rewind about our high school years .. had fun guys :)

Sunday, May 30, 2010

random write

i miss hugging with him for hours and hours
i miss hanging out with my friends
i miss working and be able to sign my payment check

geez .. 3 more days seems so long .. plus also add a couple more days to stay in jakarta
ahhh ahhh ahhhhh

some of my playlist











monsoon - tokio hotel

i swear i don't really like this band in fact their name is not really that familiar for my ears but this song is an exception .. the lyrics just connect on whats been happening n what im feeling lately btw this is one of the songs from manys that have personal connections with me :)

distance

this distance torture will soon be over

Saturday, May 29, 2010

inspired by a story

he was naive of what he feels
the signals it gave felt so real
sweet words of it sent he still keeps
but hurts so bad when he reads


Friday, May 28, 2010

movies i can't hardly wait to see






all around me

My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

i miss you


i miss my friends .. i miss the food .. i miss my cats but most of all .. i miss you :)

jealousy

jeal·ous·y

1. jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.
2. mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims.
3. vigilance in maintaining or guarding something.
4. a jealous feeling, disposition, state, or mood


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Causes Of Jealousy

Insecurity

Everyone feels insecure from time to time. But if this is part of how you feel on a regular basis, then it can lead to jealousy.

Low self esteem

If you suffer from this you will feel as if you are below most other people. You’ll feel constantly inferior. That’s why you feel jealous when someone smiles at your partner or starts to talk to them for any reason.

Little or no confidence in yourself

We all have differing levels of confidence. Some people look in the mirror and see someone they like. Others look in the mirror and see someone who isn’t worthy of being in a relationship.

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“The jealous are troublesome to others, but a torment to themselvesWilliam Penn
“Jealousy is the greatest of all evils, and the one which arouses the least pity in the person who causes it”
François de la Rochefoucauld

the trouble with love is


The trouble with love is it doesn't care how fast you fall and you can't refuse the call

its friday !!

last dawn i dreamed of someone but i don't really remember the whole plot of the .. i just remembered how i felt when i woke up .. it wasn't a happy feeling .. more of a gloomy moodyish kind ..
.. i woke up while my shades are still shut .. open the door and there was no one there .. here i am all alone (again) .. went to the kitchen a right away made myself a noodle cup ..

i'm always hungry here

i'm guessing its already 3 minute so bye .. noodles all well served while its still hot

Thursday, May 27, 2010

when the sun rise


when the sun rises its time for me to sleep .. sleep like a cat sleeps .. ignoring the sounds all around me and just hear me breathe n wake up by an never ending dream

still wide awake

i guess when everybodys awake and prepared to do their daily activity .. I'll be asleep and still sleeping till the sun sets .. i wish i could live a more healthy life by sleeping properly in a proper time like a regular human being would do .. when can i stop being like a dawn creature ??

i said something wrong


its so weird how we are currently far away from each other n keep having these small little conflicts over our what we say in our blackberry messenger .. communication is best over the phone i guess .. maybe there will be less misunderstandings